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August 18, 1681 July 11, 1680 This
morning, Pearl and I went to the Market Place, to celebrate the new governor.
This day is known as “Election Day.” The “A” was off my chest, and Pearl
asked if Dimmesdale will be mad at me since it’s off, but I told her no. The
parade begun, and Pearl saw Dimmesdale, and she immediately asked if that was
the guy who kissed her in the forest, and I yelled at her because I don’t want
anyone to know what we were in the forest together, because then everyone would
think that we were doing witchcraft. Mistress Hibbins came up to me during the
parade, and asks about involvement with Dimmesdale. I told her nothing was going
on, and she then told me that Chillingworth is coming on the ship with us, cine
they need a doctor on the ship. Once I found that out, I turned around and
Chillingworth was smirking at me. Pearl then came up to me, and she told me that
the ship sailor told her to tell me that Dimmesdale is going to bring
Chillingworth on the ship, and just for Pearl and I to go together. I was really
worrying about us not bringing Dimmesdale. I wasn’t really paying attention to
anyone since I was thinking about Dimmesdale, and I started to look at everyone,
and they were all staring at me, since the “A” was off my chest. Dimmesdale
did his Election Day sermon, and everyone said it was the best sermon ever, and
it was then when he screamed his confession, and everyone saw the “A” on his
chest as well. Dimmesdale asked Pearl for just one kiss, and soon after she
gives it to him he died, from mental breakdown. People who saw Dimmesdale
confess his crime, nobody could really decide on what they really saw on his
chest. It was either Chillingworth’s potion, Dimmesdale’s self torture, or
from inner remorse. July 7, 1680 Yesterday
I went to the forest with Pearl, to try to find and talk to Dimmesdale. Once I
saw him coming, I told Pearl to go away and play, but she wanted to stay and
listen, but she finally went away after she found it that it wasn’t the
“Black Man.” Dimmesdale and I sat and talked in the forest, and I told him
the Chillingworth was my husband. He didn’t know what to say for a while, and
neither did I. He was in complete shock, but I broke the silence and asked if he
forgives her, but Dimmesdale is just scared that Chillingworth will expose the
adultery news to the community. We
then talked for a little while more, and we decided to go away on a ship to
Europe, and we would all become more of a family. Moving to Europe will also be
good for Dimmesdale to escape the shame of the environment and society after
everyone finds out that he was my partner in the crime I committed. Right after
we decided to flee to Europe, I took my “A” and threw it into the forest. I
then called Pearl to come over, so we can go back to town and tell her the news,
but she would come to me until I but the “A” back on my chest. When I put
the “A” back on, Pearl came to me and kissed me, and the “A”. It was
hard to me to tell Pearl that Dimmesdale was her father, so I just told her that
we were a family, and that we are going to go to Europe together. Pearl then
asked Dimmesdale if he is going to go back to town with us, but Dimmesdale
replied he wasn’t. When we were all walking back, Dimmesdale then kisses
Pearl, but she quickly funs and washes the kiss of her forehead. Pearl catches
back up with us, and we then leave the forest June 17, 1680 I
have been helping around town lately. I am getting more involved in the society,
though I know I cannot erase my sin. I have given food to the poor and nursed
the sick. I also still continue my needlework. People have been looking at me
more normally lately because I have been helpful and productive. It is almost as
if they view my scarlet “A” on my chest as “able” instead of
“adulterer”. June 3, 1680 I
found out today that I can keep Pearl. It was looking grim for a while, but I
pleaded for Arthur to help me and he did. He spoke up for me and his child;
although no one knows that. I am thrilled that I can keep Pearl. She is all I
have now. June 2,1680 For
the past few weeks, I heard rumors about Pearl being taken away from me. So
tomorrow I decided to go to the governor’s house to see if these rumors are
true. Anyway, I have to deliver specially embroidered gloves to him. May 15, 1673 Today
I just moved into a cottage far from town. I feels somewhat awkward living here
without being near civilization. Although, this standard of living is much
better than the jail cell I was in for about ten months. I hope my new shelter
will turn out to be alright. May 10, 1673 I
am finally out of jail. I had been revealed shortly after y last entry. It has
been ten months. I had my beautiful daughter Pearl while in jail. Today, as part
of my sentence, I stood upon the scaffold bearing the scarlet letter and Pearl
for three hours in front of everyone. I tried to stand tall, but it was
stressful, especially holding a growing baby in my arms. The
shocking part was when I looked into the crowd and saw my husband: now Roger
Chillingworth. I could not believe my eyes, but I knew it was him from his
lopsided shoulders. He was a doctor now. He later visited me in jail to check on
Pearl’s health, as well as mine. I think they feared that I was going to harm
myself or Pearl. Roger Chillingworth asked me not to reveal his true identity. I
said I would not, and I do not plan on it. August 15, 1672 It
has been over three months since my first night with Arthur. I know now that I
am pregnant. I have had the morning sickness and I will start to show very soon.
I fear people will notice. I know that they will. I cannot hide it forever. I am
afraid to tell Arthur of my pregnancy, but I will have to soon, before I am
caught. May 2, 1672 Last
night, I stayed with Arthur. We have spoken and have been friendly for weeks,
but last night we took the final step. I love Arthur, but I cannot help thinking
of my husband. It has been a long while since he was supposed to meet me here. I
have taken him for dead, but even if he is, Arthur and I have sinned.
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